The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides

I was not planning on writing a blog post on books today, I really wasn’t. I had a fun mental health post planned (look for that later in the week!). However, last night, I had my life changed. At about 7:00 PM, I opened The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides. At 11:10, I walked out of my bedroom, all 323 pages complete, and exploded to my husband about how this was the best debut novel I have ever read (Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn is probably a close second). I just had to write a review on this book, I couldn’t go to bed tonight in good conscience without sharing how amazing it was with all of you guys. So this is what I thought of The Silent Patient, and why it blew me away. The Synopsis Alicia Berenson lives an incredible life. She is a famous painter with her own studio in her backyard, married to the handsome fashion photographer Gabriel, who she is madly in love with. A large house in London overlooking a beautiful park, everything seems perfect. Until August 25th, when Gabriel returns home late from a photo shoot, and Alicia shoots him five times in…

Spring Reading Challenge Week One
Book Recommendations , Books / March 20, 2019

It is officially Spring! After celebrating my 21st birthday yesterday, I am very happy to wake up to official Spring. I am also excited because that means the first week of the Spring Reading Challenge! This first week is going to be amazing because there were so many books that came out last year that were phenomenal. The first week challenge is: A Book That Was Published Last Spring If you have a favorite in your own library, or a book you have been waiting to read, go ahead and get on it! If you have no clue, keep reading for my top suggestions for books to read this first week! Every Note Played was published on the first day of Spring last year, so I thought it was fitting for it to be my first recommendation. Author: Lisa Genova Length: 320 Pages Genre: Fiction Every Note Played tells the story of Richard, an accomplished concert pianist, who gets diagnosed with ALS. His body is not the only thing that is failing, however, his marriage has been distant for years now. This novel reveals the depth and pain of serious illness, and the struggle that comes from keeping a marriage…

If I Had One Day of Freedom
Anxiety , Mental Health / March 18, 2019

My 21st birthday is tomorrow (the 19th). I have been thinking about what I wanted for my birthday for a while, and on top of that saw a post that prompted this thought: If you had one day without your illness, what would you do? Honestly, even just the thought of having a day without my anxiety makes me emotional. The reason it makes me emotional is that I would want to do such simple things. Things that other people do every day. So this post is dedicated all to this one question, and this one “dream” day. Before the Day If I knew that tomorrow I would wake up with no anxiety, I would do a few things today. First of all, I would call all of my family and Spencer’s family and tell them to take off of work/school tomorrow, and to be prepared to be up early. I would most likely cry a lot, and probably be extremely anxious about what the day would hold. Which is a strange truth of my life. When I think of a future without anxiety, I honestly start to panic. My anxiety does such a good job at convincing me that…

Spring Reading Challenge 2019
Book Recommendations , Books / March 14, 2019

Spring is arriving! Spring is officially one week away. It is one of my favorite seasons; the days get warmer, the trees get their leaves back, the flowers blossom, and it is the perfect time to enjoy the sunshine and sound of the birds with a book! So I decided to create a Spring reading challenge! I would love it if you would try the whole challenge, or even just pick one week and challenge yourself it! Here is how it will work: there are 13 weeks in Spring (March 21st-June 21st). I wanted to make this challenge an even 12, and also wanted to provide an “off” week in case you get behind or need a break! Therefore, there are 12 different “parts” of the challenge. Just go week by week all the way down! By the start of summer you would have read 12 new books! For each category, I wanted to provide some inspiration to get you started, so if you would like ideas, keep on reading! Each week at the beginning of the week I will be posting inspiration for each category, this is more all-over inspiration. If you are confident and want to get started,…

10 Best Young Adult Novels
Book Recommendations / March 10, 2019

Today I came back across one of my favorite young adult novels after several years. It inspired me to compile a list of the 10 best YA novels (in my opinion). As always, genre, length, author, and a quick synopsis are included! The Book Thief Author: Markus Zusak Length: 608 Pages Genre: Historical Fiction Synopsis: It’s 1939 in Nazi Germany, Liesel Meminger brings joy to her life by stealing books she cannot purchase. She soon brings joy to those around her, including her neighbors during the bombing of Munich and the Jew that’s hidden in her basement, but at what cost? Eragon *This applies to the entire Eragon series, which consists of four books. Author: Christopher Paolini Length: 528 Pages Genre: Fiction/Fantasy Synopsis: Perfect for people who love Lord of the Rings, Eragon takes the reader to a magical world where 15 year old Eragon believes he is nothing but a farm boy, until he discovers a dragons egg. Swept into a world with powers and a dragon that he does not fully understand, the entire weight of the empire may rest on his shoulders. The Giver Author: Lois Lowry Length: 240 Pages Genre: Sci-Fi Synopsis: 12 year old Jonas…

I’m Stuck in an Abusive Relationship
Anxiety / March 7, 2019

When people think of abusive relationship, the biggest abuse to fear is physical. Yet, mental abuse is just as scarring. In the realm of mental abuse, there is just something about a certain term that strikes fear in the hearts of many. What am I referencing? Gaslighting. Something about gaslighting makes a chill go down your spine. If you don’t know what gaslighting is, it is when a person manipulates you to the point of you questioning your own sanity. They use blatant lies, denial, exhaustion, isolation, confusion, and a general sense of hot/cold “love” to make you believe that you are crazy. I never thought I would admit this, but I am in a relationship where this occurs daily. And it is not my husband. I gaslight myself every single day. It is sick. It is wrong. It shows how little respect I have for myself and the lack of control over my emotions. Now, before you click off, call me crazy or dramatic, and swear to never read my content again, take a minute. I think that just about any person who has ever dealt with mental illness in any shape or form can understand what I mean,…

Yoga for Stress and Anxiety Relief
Anxiety / March 6, 2019

In the past, I have briefly talked about the fact that I use yoga for my anxiety. It is one of the many tools that I use for natural anxiety relief. Therefore, I thought that it was only right that I dedicated an entire post to yoga, it’s pros, cons, and favorite poses. Positive Aspects of Yoga for Stress and Anxiety One of the biggest positives for yoga in my book is the fact that it is natural. I have voiced my personal position on anxiety medication for myself, as well as the reasons for why I try to stay as medication free as possible. However, because I try to stay away from medication sometimes I need to find other methods to keep my cool from day to day. This is where yoga has become a saving grace for me. Another positive for yoga is that it can be used for more things besides just stress and anxiety. I also use it for the symptoms of anxiety. My anxiety causes a lot of stomach upset, dizziness, and just overall jitters. Many people also reach for medication for those symptoms, or just have to sweat them out. Yoga has given me…

Books That Are Hard to Put Down
Book Recommendations / March 4, 2019

For my first post on my book page, I decided to make a list of books that I found hard to put down. These books span in length and topic, and are hard to put down for different reasons. I will provide the author, the genre, the page length, and why I couldn’t put it down! If you want to learn more about a book, just click on the photograph! The Outsider Author: Stephen King Length: 576 Pages Genre: Horror Why I couldn’t put it down: King grips you with the story of a small-town baseball coach who is the main suspect in the brutal murder of a young boy. Is Terry the murderer? Or is there a much greater, more sinister presence lurking in their small town? A Simple Favor Author: Darcey Bell Length: 304 Pages Genre: Thriller Why I couldn’t put it down: Bell creates such an unsettling atmosphere, you want to keep reading until your biggest question is answered, “Where is Emily?” None of the characters are as they seem in this twisting and turning novel of domestic affairs. Ill Will Author: Dan Chaon Length: 496 Pages Genre: Mystery/Thriller Why I couldn’t put it down: This novel…

Inspirational Thoughts for Today
Anxiety , Mental Health / March 4, 2019

I felt it was only right to talk to you. You have been on my mind a decent amount recently and you deserve recognition. Sometimes in life I feel like I am alone, just floating in this land of anxiety and isolation. Yet, even in these moments, I can always bring myself back to you. I am not alone, because you are there and hopefully you will always care. You motivate me to get back to my life. At times the love of myself is not enough to push myself to do the hard things. Recovery is hard. It is the hardest thing I have ever done. It is exhausting to throw myself out into the face of my panic, to be drained of all energy, and many times, to fail again and again. Most days I want to stay inside and do nothing. I want to succumb to panic. I want to crawl into the bath and do nothing. But then, I think of you. I realize that I cannot stay inside. I cannot avoid living life. I cannot cower in the face of fear. Because I cannot limit you. I cannot fail you. It would be a disservice…

A Review of Dark Places by Gillian Flynn
Book Recommendations , Books , Uncategorized / February 27, 2019

Normally I do not do book reviews, as it falls a bit outside of my realm of mental health awareness. However, I think that I may start doing a “Wednesday Book of the Week”, because reading is so important to me. Books have changed my life, and they are one of the objects I rely on the most when I am anxious or depressed. The most recent book I finished absolutely blew me away. I have made a list of my favorite books before, which you can read here. Gillian Flynn made it on that list twice. Well, she now gets an entire post. What I Expected Reading Dark Places If I have learned one thing from reading Flynn in the past, it is that she enjoys suspense as well as topics that are on the darker side. I have not once been able to guess the ending of a novel. Gone Girl literally changed my life and left me with my mouth hanging open. Sharp Objects disturbed me as well as confused me down to the last page. Therefore, when I came into Dark Places I expected the same treatment. Disturbing topics are just a part of life for…

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